وحيد

كلما أحسست بوحشة و فقدت ذلك الحس الأليف و كأن الهم في قلبي ظلمة تحيطني ألقيت جسدي على فراشي
و اغرقت رأسي في وسادتي وناديت ... يارب مالي سواك
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I'm cursed ..

Tears are my curse ..
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ينادي فؤادي

..يااارب كن معي ..

Another dimension

I want to go to a another dimension
Where I don't need to react to anything or have any emotions toward anything .. I jst sit there and observe without even having to listen ..

I don't want to live there for ever .. But I want to have it as hideout..for days like this .
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Instants feelings

I'm feeling down .. don't wanna see anybody ..Too tired to even react to anything .. Wanna cry .. Feeling so loaded with many unknown things

My problem is I can't even think of a reasonable purpose for all of that
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His silent treatment

I hate it when he gives me the silence treatment ..
When ever I miss up with him , ignore him or treat him badly, he stays and act as if he is really enjoying it or at least fine with it .
But later when we are alone .. He gives me the silence treatment .. He will stand still not saying anything look at me with an (expressionless )face as if he is waiting for me to say something . It feels horrible really ! I can hardly breath , too much pressure that it feels like my head will explode and my feet can't hold me anymore .
I even reach a stage where I scream ( JST SAY ANYTHING EVEN JST A WARD !!! )

But I guess this is his way to show me his boundaries ... And to teach me to appreciate it every word from him .



By the way did I mention that when i said him am referring to my intestine .. ^^

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Cry it out

It feels so good when u let it out
It feels even better when u cry it out

Nothing feels better than laying on my side on my bed closing my eyes and cry it out , open my heart and let the prayers fly out .. So worm .. So honest .. So needy

أشكو إلى الله الكروب .. و ادمعي حرى سكوب ..
ياااارب كن معي
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Why u ? =(

Anyone else but her !
She should've known better !

I've always had that relative who I tell most of my secrets and fantasies but one day she became a part of that secret ! So who should I go back to now ?!

I'm so lost , confused, angry and sad ! Coz am in situation a girl shouldn't ve be put through .

Why did you become part of the puzzle when u should be the one who  solve it .

You should've know better . There are things are not meant to be said. And stuff I will never blame you for hiding it from me although it is about me . Because I know certain things are better be unknown . I would rather be shocked and surprised ! Than having to carry all this waiting weight on my shoulder with my hand and legs tight ..

And now I wait .. But u should've known better
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Happy feelings

When I suddenly write ( I love u ) don't be surprised or suspicious . I just like to express my happy feelings out loud . It is my way of appreciating them ♥
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I just can't trust her

I just want to know when can I start trusting her words

When can I take her promises for sure and not (almost knowing) that she is gonna change her words at the very last minute leaving me alone behind to cover up and suffer the consequences

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