A disappointment

It is hard to be a CS student in my family . I don't mean academically but it is the expectations from others .
Especially if you have a dad like me.
He always think that by now I should know how to build a computer , fix a hardware and program software . Look maybe a should but that will be a personal effort ! He just can't understand that they don't teach us these stuff !! Just because it is computer science doesn't mean I should know it all !!
What brought this up is that today I show him a small clip I made with stykz ! I did it in 2 days only I
didn't have software that will made easier ! I know it was raw and wasn't detailed as it should be but at that point I was focusing in making it . When he saw it he was so cold and parlay smiled I tried to explain how difficult it was he nodded his head and made some comment to make me falsely think he is amazed or something . But then he made so clear to me when he said ( shouldn't you by now know how to program such a software !!!!!!!!! )
I mean dad ! Seriously !! What do you think I'm !

I'm not blaming him or anything he is really a great father and always have been supportive but I just hate that no matter how I did it is really hard for me to feel special .

With teary eyes , I just made a decision .. Stop being a stupid and show people whatever you do .. Keep it to yourself .. I shouldn't try to impress anyone but me .
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My Love .. My Bed

 My love  is always there for me whether

 I want a shoulder to cry on ,

an ear to complain to ,

or a lap to sleep in

Day or Night

Happiness , Sadness

Smiles or Tears

I'm always welcome .And  he is always there

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I'm so in love with my bed that I start to think of it as a person !

He is always there for my whether I want a shoulder to cry on , an ear to complain to , or a lap to sleep in
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I'm so in love with my bed that I start to think of it as a person !

A Voice

Something is knocking in my heart... It has been a long time since I've heard this sound ..the same gentle polite and innocent hand .. Knock ..knock
But it gets louder .. Louder ..as if 'it ' getting impatient and want to get it out
...
I guess I handle it very well just did as I did years ago ... I raise the volume of the other voices so it voice got faded slowly .. Until I can no longer hear it ...
But I always know
It still there
It still has hope
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Try

This post is just a try to see whether the (email blog) works or not ^^
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مرحبا في عالمي Welcome in my world

السلام عليكم ورحمة الله

رسالة تحذير قبل البدء :

وصولك عند هذه النقطة تعني أنك بعيد جدا عن أقرب مركز واقعي , إن أردت العودة فهذا هو الوقت المناسب .

لست مسئولة عن  أي  ضياع عقلاني أو أي تعدي للقوانين البشرية .

هنا .. أنا أحكم

Warning before Starting :

If you reach this point , it means you are very Far from the nearst realistic center . If you want to go back , this is the right time .

I'm not responsible for any rational mislay or any violate to the

human rules .

In here , I rule

The Dreamer .