It is hard to be a CS student in my family . I don't mean academically but it is the expectations from others .
Especially if you have a dad like me.
He always think that by now I should know how to build a computer , fix a hardware and program software . Look maybe a should but that will be a personal effort ! He just can't understand that they don't teach us these stuff !! Just because it is computer science doesn't mean I should know it all !!
What brought this up is that today I show him a small clip I made with stykz ! I did it in 2 days only I
didn't have software that will made easier ! I know it was raw and wasn't detailed as it should be but at that point I was focusing in making it . When he saw it he was so cold and parlay smiled I tried to explain how difficult it was he nodded his head and made some comment to make me falsely think he is amazed or something . But then he made so clear to me when he said ( shouldn't you by now know how to program such a software !!!!!!!!! )
I mean dad ! Seriously !! What do you think I'm !
I'm not blaming him or anything he is really a great father and always have been supportive but I just hate that no matter how I did it is really hard for me to feel special .
With teary eyes , I just made a decision .. Stop being a stupid and show people whatever you do .. Keep it to yourself .. I shouldn't try to impress anyone but me .
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